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[offblovwhonighast]

I feel far away from people in my life, I keep thinking soon, but it’s only a matter of days until
And nothing has changed. I feel I’ve put in a lot of effort, someone should be saving me about now. I haven’t thought like this for a while, I remember in primary school thinking would suddenly change and make it better. It’s a bad day and I’m tired. But I look at people and don’t feel them, they are so far away and they don’t think like me. I don’t feel anything. I don’t know people my age, I never want to settle. I’m putting my foot down and begging to go back to my idealised version of the past. I have support, but they are all so clueless and so. Far. Away.
I want to talk to someone and feel something significant please.
I haven’t had a crush for a long time I haven’t kissed anyone for a long time. Everyone’s so far away and it’s boring and I don’t feel anything.
I don’t have anyone in my life that I want to kiss. That’s strange. I think I’ll feel better in the morning. I’m scared I’ll go in and feel so lonely around people again, get left behind in a rush. I don’t feel a part of
I’ll feel better in the morning